Hi everyone, been a while...Saddly it will stay that way. I know some are celebrating, and some are crying in their apple juice but it's better this way.
Without getting in to too much detail (most of which is either personal or nobody would understand anyway), my purpose for being here is over, ( most) of the main people that caused me to stay are gone and I no longer have any reason to be here. One thing I will clarify is I'm not leaving UT, I play elsewhere (I won't say where, some might know and say where anyway but I'm not saying), but I'm not coming to these servers anymore. I know it sounds kinda....Yah I know the word I'm aiming for but I don't use it, but I know that's how it sounds. As I said I don't wanna get in to too much detail, but I've had enough of what I've seen, how I've been treated, and the overall..."feel" I get when I'm there. I'm really sorry if anyone is upset (Which I doubt) about this but I have to do this.
Some might say, why not just meet more new people? Well, I have an answer for that but it will offend a lot of people so I'm not going to say it. But I understand where you are coming from.
What I will say is the few of you left that I grew to truly love and care for I really do appreciate your kindness and friendship, thank you for always being nice to me. Not to sound like a drama queen but I haven't had a lot of that, at least not in life outside the screen...And I'll be here for you if you ever need a person to cry to, to talk to or somebody who will try to understand you. I want to be that for others, and that goes to all of you, even of you who might not be fond of me, I have no problem being an ear for anyone. I know I always need that, I'm sure everyone else does too.
To the ones (you know who you are and what you did) who will not be mentioned but have been the polar opposite, congratulations! You're finally rid of me. Thank you for being yourselves, it gave me a goal in what not to be in life; to which you should be proud. God gives even the cruel a purpose in life, yay you!
I will miss some of you, and some of you not but overall I hope all of you have great lives, full of blessings, peace, and all the Good God can give, I have prayed for many of you, some of you for months at a time every day. I really have cared about you all, including the ones I won't miss I care about you too (as contradictory as that sounds). I might pop on the forums once in a while, but not much, I hardly have in years anyway.
I'll always respond to being private messaged, and if anyone wants my email I'll give it to you in a PM (don't spread it out), and if anyone wants to chat with me send me a message and I can make an irc chat.
Love, Peace, and Prayers I leave you all along with this little image, only those who really know me will understand it.
http://i931.photobucket.com/albums/a...psadlvij5f.png
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qM1YMeDsc-M
~ God Bless ~
~ MokonafanX5000
P.S. I don't think this will happen, but if anyone gets in their head to send people they think I'll listen to to make me come back, don't do that. I won't.